Saturday, June 6, 2009

BitterSweet



Kate and I saying goodbye to our friend Wendy.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Malapit Ka Na

The priest from the mass today asked us to say “Malapit ka na.” to the person sitting beside us in the mass. He was expecting that there would be a violent reaction afterwards, and of course, there was. Who would like to die early anyway?
But dying is just a part of the circle of life. “Death chases life from the very first breath.” We are just a dust here on earth. As my dad puts it, no matter how long have you traveled in the jeepney, you will reach your final destination sooner or later.
The priest offered us a different perspective on how to view death. Perhaps death is not as lonely as it sounds if we have missions in life. We should know our purpose so that life will be worth living.
Mission in life sounds too serious for me. I just want to take it one day at a time. As one of the episode in Spongebob had it, make it ‘The Best Day Ever’. I think that the key is to make the most out of the day that had been once again given to you. Everyday is an opportunity to do good, to be happy, to use time wisely, to utilize your talent in your work, be a blessing to others and strive to even be a better person.
In a fast pace lifestyle that we are living now, it is kind of difficult to achieve nor to be consistent with these. But I guess it is also part of the mission to be a work in progress until you can achieve your ‘ideal’ self.
Personally I have two main goals which top the list of my mission. I have to get in track with my project study. I have a year to finish it and my ‘gap months’ is over. It is bloody hard and research is not exactly my favorite subject but I am aiming to focus now and give it my best shot.
My second goal is to be a professor. I think that if I really do care for this country, I gave to give back. And the best way to do that is to share myself to the students in a state university that I really benefited a lot from.
Should I achieve these goals, maybe I would find the ‘peace’ that Father was talking about. Then it is time to set my eyes on the other missions that I should do as I continue my journey. If you are going to think about the reasons to live and seize every moment of it, then death is not as scary as it seems anymore.